"It was almost 2years ago when i first encountered her online..... on battlenet.. playing wc3... A nice person by the name of mary, introduced her to everyone.. including me.... prior to what ever one may think... i was not all googly over her.. we played wc3 and became somewhat of rivals... i had never played with someone that was as good as I was......  as months past.. we started talking online.. and getting pretty close.. as this happened.. i started falling for her.. she was cute nice.. and played games...... but i wouldnt ask her out because i had a gf... but my gf and I broke up.. so i asked her out on a date..."

 

 

 

People seem not to comprehend.. when they read.. this took place starting  2years ago.....   its so gay.. you people shouldnt have to assume.. its right there in typing.. just read and comprehend....  but i guess that to much work for some people... oh well...  you people that dont comprehend pls dont speak with me anymore lol... Its like how da fuck can i break up with anyone.... Laff.. some people.......   Anyway.. ive gotten bear form in with my druid and he has a big butt go bear ^_^.  Gonna try to go to barrens

I've had many people as me questions about myself.. my life.. my personality.. what im aspiring for.... what i have achieved, what my feelings are.. so i'll try my best to express them in this entry.

 

 

Im a simple very out going person... I honestly dont require much out of other people.. I tend to think negative.. because anytime you think positive you get let down... I now know.. the people that you dont expect to let you down will let you down.  I've had many dramatic battles in my love life... not even have to be going out with them.. but drama, and for what reasons.... its like i dont have a say so in anything.. or mean much to anyone or anybody... i just want... for me to be able to get 1 thing i want just once.. and if it blows up in my face.. at least it was something i wanted....  Lets start shall me... You guys all know the name Lanie pretty well....  It was almost 2years ago when i first encountered her online..... on battlenet.. playing wc3... A nice person by the name of mary, introduced her to everyone.. including me.... prior to what ever one may think... i was not all googly over her.. we played wc3 and became somewhat of rivals... i had never played with someone that was as good as I was......  as months past.. we started talking online.. and getting pretty close.. as this happened.. i started falling for her.. she was cute nice.. and played games...... but i wouldnt ask her out because i had a gf... but my gf and I broke up.. so i asked her out on a date... she was shy.. and said no.. plus there was another guy involved.. his name is Francis.. Which happens to be a good friend of mines now.. by the way... well thats fine.. i guess i couldnt do much about it.. and then one day she said ok mo lets meet up.. i was suprised..   well the weekend of us meeting came.. and she didnt come online or anything... 5am of the day we were suppose to meet came.. and she said she couldnt because of wisdom teeth..... im like hmmm ok.........  well that day was the last day i would talk to her for almost 4 months... many people thought she was uber gay for leaving and shit.. and flaking on me.. but i always stood up for her.. and realized that i had stronger feelings for he rthan i thought... oh well she came back.. for a month.. and it was a good month.. and then she was suppose to come down with her friend jonathan.. but only he came down.. and i got stood up again.. now i was very hurt.. because its like man i really like this girl... and whatever.. seemed she felt the same.. and yet she stood me up again.....   I still stood by her... although tons of my friends that were also her friends lost faith and hope in her.. and resented her for what she supposedly did to me.. but i didnt want that.. no one understood but they obeyed my wishes.. well she has been back for almost a year now... and i really do love this girl... but yet she seems not to want a relationship.. which is ok i think.. although i wish i had the chance.. well im sure my chance will coem .. i think i at least deserve it.. its funny that when we convo about this... she says something like.. you have no idea what i put francis through.. its like wtf.. you have no idea what i went through.. but whatever.. its liek what can i do right?  nothing will go my way right? so who cares right?... yep i'll do anything for her humanly possible..  she is one of my bestfriends.. so i guess only time will tell where our relationship will go......  There was angela... man so damn fine... so damn smart.. so damn funny.. so damn everything......  Someone that i not only liked but admired adored she was almost like the lanie before i met lanie... well we dated.. it was great.. i would like do anything jsut to see her for 5 minutes.. and then we broke up.. she said because not seeing me all the time made her lose feelings.. im like wtf its not even my fault.. but whatever.. I got bitter and said some things im not to proud of.. although non of what i said was mean... also she hurt me because she believed in everything someoen else would tell her and never from mee.  after that she ended up dating 2 people that i knew.. and boy were they the biggest losers ever.... one played ddr so much that he spent 200 bucks in a day... yet she dated him.. and then she dated Mark.. the same mark that brags about sleeping with girls when he goes out to japan and shit on the ship.. yes franky's ex gf's Mark...... the one with the 2 inch penis....  what a bunch of tools.. but whatever....... i cant do shit about that.. live ya life how ya wanan live it... there are more girls.. but you get the picture......  I see cute Jap girls with dirty smell white doodes... I guess its because white is right.... I see dumb fucks struggle with school.. and its a joke to me..because school is the easiest shit you can go through... all you have to do is tell the teachers, show them what you've learned... its not hard at all..  If you want a easy life 15-24.. then do good in school.. its that simple.. i see and hear people complaining about omg school is so ahrd... there is nothing hard about school... no matter how you put it.... My interest in cars has dwindled.. but im glad gabe turned me on to this hobbie.... before soemone asks me why i havent listed the stuff with vicky... let me just say.. because it would be to much.. and frankly im not trying to live in that past anymore... anyway.. carl use to be my bestfriend.. but he has changed.. not like anything super crazy.. but he lets people change him.. people that he doesnt even know.. but yet when a friend tells him about himself.. he gets defensive and shit.... what a fuckin tool he is... this guy has fucked me over on so much shit that ishouldnt be fucked over on... its like whoa.... but he has also been thre for me at the drop of a dime...  but what can i do.. sometimes i feel like i wanna just take a month vacation of nothing but sitting at home and gaming... sometimes i wish to go back in time... i really dont even know what im saying.. but these are some of my thoughts.